Saturday, December 25, 2010
Friday, December 24, 2010
.New paintings on the way.
Inspiration:
Lately I've been working on a lot of new art. It's taking me a while to finish a 4 foot painting but I am really excited on how its turning out. I've also done some other water color paintings which are bigger then my normal sized art. I'm really just trying to do bigger paintings so they have a "bigger" impact on people. I'm also trying to get a good amount of paintings so I can start looking around and hopefully have them displayed in a gallery somewhere downtown. That is a big event I want to experience this coming new year. However, I still have to figure out a way to properly display them. I also have to take more time in writing descriptions for them. Anyways I cannot wait to upload some of the new stuff!
Thursday, December 23, 2010
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
Monday, December 13, 2010
Mexico in my heart always!
I seriously love my culture and hope for the best with all the happenings in Mexico.
Sunday, December 12, 2010
Saturday, December 11, 2010
Sputnik Sweetheart
Curently reading Sputnik Sweetheart and it is amazing. Haruki has a way with words.
Friday, December 10, 2010
Thursday, December 9, 2010
Down There
New Avey Tare Solo Album. It's seriously a masterpeice.Such an emotional album. He is soo good at portraying feelings into music.
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
Monday, December 6, 2010
Sunday, December 5, 2010
Friday, December 3, 2010
Sons of light
You are going to have the light just a little longer, walk while you have the light, before darkness overtakes you. The man who walks in the dark does not know where he is going. Put your trust in the light while you have it, so that you may become sons of light. - Jesus
John 12:35-36
John 12:35-36
Thursday, December 2, 2010
Animal Collective - Street Flash
THIS IS EXACTLY HOW I"VE BEEN FEELING.
Does anyone in here get hit with inside fever,
So bad sometimes it's hard to move around?
They'll show you all the things you are not doing,
Instead of helping you they'll block ya out.
And you're whining you shouldn't waste your morning,
But the couch fibers kept you inside.
Said I'm so sorry I came in late this evening,
But all the clocks around the town had died,
And all the fruit stores' colors were so bright,
With couples smiling, cooking things tonight,
And what were all those troubles on my mind?
Oh, I took a walk...
(Cough! Sniff...)
Well, uh,
Just what I need, right?The morning light.
The room (cough) we all have,
No more any (?)
I just listen tonight,
And all we know,
Is all that I have,
Is in control.
The room is filled with men and cock,
And I don't break 'till a midnight shock.
Are you coming out tonight?
Pretend I am? Well, I just might.
The room is filled with ancient dates,
Where I've been and what I ate.
Before I'm asked to throw them out,
I play with every little doubt.
The room is filled with gummy bears,
Electric shavers, ingrown hairs.
I keep the curtains tied in knots.
You sleep on cotton, rest in fluff.
The room is filled with catalogues,
Encyclopedias, books enough,
To keep me busy in the morning.
Sun sets fast without a warning.
The room is filled with cords and plugs,
Electronic translucent bugs.
And what's that crawling all around?
What's that twitching, is it still alive!?
Is it still alive!?
Is it still alive!?
Does anyone in here get hit with inside fever,
So bad sometimes it's hard to move around?
They'll show you all the things you are not doing,
Instead of helping you they'll block ya out.
And you're whining you shouldn't waste your morning,
But the couch fibers kept you inside.
I'm so sorry I came in late this evening,
But all the clocks around the town had died,
And all the fruit stores colors were so bright,
With couples smiling, cooking things tonight,
And what were all those troubles on my mind?
Yes, I took a walk.
Oh, I like a walk.
Oh, I like a walk.
Does anyone in here get hit with inside fever,
So bad sometimes it's hard to move around?
They'll show you all the things you are not doing,
Instead of helping you they'll block ya out.
And you're whining you shouldn't waste your morning,
But the couch fibers kept you inside.
Said I'm so sorry I came in late this evening,
But all the clocks around the town had died,
And all the fruit stores' colors were so bright,
With couples smiling, cooking things tonight,
And what were all those troubles on my mind?
Oh, I took a walk...
(Cough! Sniff...)
Well, uh,
Just what I need, right?The morning light.
The room (cough) we all have,
No more any (?)
I just listen tonight,
And all we know,
Is all that I have,
Is in control.
The room is filled with men and cock,
And I don't break 'till a midnight shock.
Are you coming out tonight?
Pretend I am? Well, I just might.
The room is filled with ancient dates,
Where I've been and what I ate.
Before I'm asked to throw them out,
I play with every little doubt.
The room is filled with gummy bears,
Electric shavers, ingrown hairs.
I keep the curtains tied in knots.
You sleep on cotton, rest in fluff.
The room is filled with catalogues,
Encyclopedias, books enough,
To keep me busy in the morning.
Sun sets fast without a warning.
The room is filled with cords and plugs,
Electronic translucent bugs.
And what's that crawling all around?
What's that twitching, is it still alive!?
Is it still alive!?
Is it still alive!?
Does anyone in here get hit with inside fever,
So bad sometimes it's hard to move around?
They'll show you all the things you are not doing,
Instead of helping you they'll block ya out.
And you're whining you shouldn't waste your morning,
But the couch fibers kept you inside.
I'm so sorry I came in late this evening,
But all the clocks around the town had died,
And all the fruit stores colors were so bright,
With couples smiling, cooking things tonight,
And what were all those troubles on my mind?
Yes, I took a walk.
Oh, I like a walk.
Oh, I like a walk.
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
I don't want to grow distant from God. Not that God will ever grow distant from me.
There’s this world in my head, within every interior of my body that although at times it is eager to flow out and although at times it feels like it is out, it’s not even close.
People see not the bits of it not at all what my world really is..
I can't even describe it myself...But I like it.
It's where I get my energy from, the sweet juice that keeps my blood wet.
My eyes see a world of destruction a world not so appealing but my soul feels a world of everlasting beauty, explosion of colors never before seen.
I want to show the whole world my inner creations but I know it is impossible because they are mine. And so all I can do is flow the best I can.
I believe however that all these humans all these people we roam the earth with have their own magical world within the layers of their skin, and that this world has worlds within worlds.
We all have something beautiful to offer and yet society seems to steal this from us.
Oh what a thief society is and how weak the human race is for letting this happen.
How horrible it is to blend in, to have the only thing that really matters abducted from us and thrown away like it was never there.
Our own little spark of magic, gone. But I have learned to have faith, to hope and believe.
This dazzling world that lies in me was beginning to disintegrate into the unknown but faith has rescued it and I hope for all the other worlds that are in danger, and I believe that every creature roaming this earth will get to it before it is gone because their inner world glows like the moon glows upon this earth.
It’s what lights up the darkness within us.
It’s what pushes us to continue on this impermanent land.
It’s a gift given to us by the Creator and we have done nothing to deserve it.
It is by His grace and His unconditional love for us that we have received the spark of magic. This is what I have learned from God in my very own personal relationship with Him, and I know it doesn’t stop here.
God dwells in me in this world I speak of, the celestial King of my heart.
The love He has to offer is pure.
God is love.
If only we could see and learn from His unconditional love if only we could get it through our heads that all we need to do is try, that God doesn’t expect us to be perfect rather to be consistent. To repent when we fall into temptation and realize that the sun rising is our hope for another chance.
I Love you God.
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
Monday, November 29, 2010
Sunday, November 28, 2010
Friday, November 26, 2010
Thursday, November 25, 2010
Pick Me Ups
"Whether you think you can, or you think you can't--you're right."
— Henry Ford
"Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a harder battle."
— Plato
"Wrinkles should merely indicate where the smiles have been."
— Mark Twain
"Love does not begin and end the way we seem to think it does. Love is a battle, love is a war; love is a growing up."
— James Baldwin
"Think of all the beauty still left around you and be happy."
— Anne Frank
"Others have seen what is and asked why. I have seen what could be and asked why not. "
— Pablo Picasso
"What is a friend? A single soul dwelling in two bodies."
— Aristotle
"I can be changed by what happens to me. But I refuse to be reduced by it."
— Maya Angelou
"Remember, we're madly in love, so it's all right to kiss me anytime you feel like it."
— Suzanne Collins
"Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened."
— Dr. Seuss
"A room without books is like a body without a soul."
— Marcus Tullius Cicero
"I am enough of an artist to draw freely upon my imagination. Imagination is more important than knowledge. Knowledge is limited. Imagination encircles the world."
— Albert Einstein
— Henry Ford
"Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a harder battle."
— Plato
"Wrinkles should merely indicate where the smiles have been."
— Mark Twain
"Love does not begin and end the way we seem to think it does. Love is a battle, love is a war; love is a growing up."
— James Baldwin
"Think of all the beauty still left around you and be happy."
— Anne Frank
"Others have seen what is and asked why. I have seen what could be and asked why not. "
— Pablo Picasso
"What is a friend? A single soul dwelling in two bodies."
— Aristotle
"I can be changed by what happens to me. But I refuse to be reduced by it."
— Maya Angelou
"Remember, we're madly in love, so it's all right to kiss me anytime you feel like it."
— Suzanne Collins
"Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened."
— Dr. Seuss
"A room without books is like a body without a soul."
— Marcus Tullius Cicero
"I am enough of an artist to draw freely upon my imagination. Imagination is more important than knowledge. Knowledge is limited. Imagination encircles the world."
— Albert Einstein
Monday, November 1, 2010
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Quotes about God.
It's been really interesting to see how different people view God.. Heres a few quotes I found that I find really inspiring...
"People are often unreasonable and self-centered. Forgive them anyway.
If you are kind, people may accuse you of ulterior motives. Be kind anyway.
If you are honest, people may cheat you. Be honest anyway.
If you find happiness, people may be jealous. Be happy anyway.
The good you do today may be forgotten tomorrow. Do good anyway.
Give the world the best you have and it may never be enough. Give your best anyway.
For you see, in the end, it is between you and God. It was never between you and them anyway."
— Mother Teresa
"If we find ourselves with a desire that nothing in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that we were made for another world."
— C.S. Lewis
"If I should ever die, God forbid, let this be my epitaph:
THE ONLY PROOF HE NEEDED
FOR THE EXISTENCE OF GOD
WAS MUSIC"
— Kurt Vonnegut
"I am trying here to prevent anyone saying the really foolish thing that people often say about Him: I’m ready to accept Jesus as a great moral teacher, but I don’t accept his claim to be God. That is the one thing we must not say. A man who was merely a man and said the sort of things Jesus said would not be a great moral teacher. He would either be a lunatic — on the level with the man who says he is a poached egg — or else he would be the Devil of Hell. You must make your choice. Either this man was, and is, the Son of God, or else a madman or something worse. You can shut him up for a fool, you can spit at him and kill him as a demon or you can fall at his feet and call him Lord and God, but let us not come with any patronizing nonsense about his being a great human teacher. He has not left that open to us. He did not intend to."
— C.S. Lewis
Are you looking for me?
I am in the next seat.
My shoulder is against yours.
you will not find me in the stupas,
not in Indian shrine rooms,
nor in synagogues,
nor in cathedrals:
not in masses,
nor kirtans,
not in legs winding around your own neck,
nor in eating nothing but vegetables.
When you really look for me,
you will see me instantly —
you will find me in the tiniest house of time.
Kabir says: Student, tell me, what is God?
He is the breath inside the breath."
— Kabir
"God has no religion."
— Mahatma Gandhi
"When I stand before God at the end of my life, I would hope that I would not have a single bit of talent left, and could say, "I used everything you gave me"."
— Erma Bombeck
"I cannot choose but adhere to the word of God, which has possession of my conscience; nor can I possibly, nor will I even make any recantation, since it is neither safe nor honest to act contrary to conscience! Here I stand; I cannot do otherwise, so help me God! Amen."
— Martin Luther
"The way of Jesus cannot be imposed or mapped — it requires an active participation in following Jesus as he leads us through sometimes strange and unfamiliar terrritory, in circumstances that become clear only in the hesitations and questionings, in the pauses and reflections where we engage in prayerful conversation with one another and with him."
— Eugene H. Peterson
"When your will is God's will, you will have your will."
— Charles H. Spurgeon
"Only God is awesome."
— Shane Claiborne
"What we are is God's gift to us. What we become is our gift to God."
— Eleanor Powell
"Every day people are straying away from the church and going back to God."
— Lenny Bruce
"We're called to be faithful, to take those first difficult steps--and to leave the results up to God."
— Alex Harris
"It is impossible to rightly govern the world without God and the Bible."
— George Washington
"God has, in fact, written two books, not just one. Of course, we are all familiar with the first book he wrote, namely Scripture. But he has written a second book called creation."
— Francis Bacon
"I am unaware of his plans but I shall never stop believing in them because I cannot fathom them and I prefer to mistrust my own intellectual capacities than his justice."
— Alexis de Tocqueville
"You are a child of mine,
Born of my own design,
And you bear the hard of life.
No matter where you go,
Oh, you will always know,
That you've been made free in Christ,
And you are a child of mine! "
— Mark Schultz
"Salvation is more than a word, It is His Word. His word became flesh so we have the opportunity to live."
— Tabitha Robin
"To be a Christian means to forgive the inexcusable because God has forgiven the inexcusable in you."
— C.S. Lewis
"No woman wants to be in submission to a man who isn't in submission to God!"
— T.D. Jakes
"I gave in, and admitted that God was God."
— C.S. Lewis
"I don't try to imagine a personal God; it suffices to stand in awe at the structure of the world, insofar as it allows our inadequate senses to appreciate it."
— Albert Einstein
"I believe in God, but not as one thing, not as an old man in the sky. I believe that what people call God is something in all of us. I believe that what Jesus and Mohammed and Buddha and all the rest said was right. It's just that the translations have gone wrong."
— John Lennon
"Do not think that love in order to be genuine has to be extraordinary. What we need is to love without getting tired. Be faithful in small things because it is in them that your strength lies."
— Mother Teresa
"People are often unreasonable and self-centered. Forgive them anyway.
If you are kind, people may accuse you of ulterior motives. Be kind anyway.
If you are honest, people may cheat you. Be honest anyway.
If you find happiness, people may be jealous. Be happy anyway.
The good you do today may be forgotten tomorrow. Do good anyway.
Give the world the best you have and it may never be enough. Give your best anyway.
For you see, in the end, it is between you and God. It was never between you and them anyway."
— Mother Teresa
"If we find ourselves with a desire that nothing in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that we were made for another world."
— C.S. Lewis
"If I should ever die, God forbid, let this be my epitaph:
THE ONLY PROOF HE NEEDED
FOR THE EXISTENCE OF GOD
WAS MUSIC"
— Kurt Vonnegut
"I am trying here to prevent anyone saying the really foolish thing that people often say about Him: I’m ready to accept Jesus as a great moral teacher, but I don’t accept his claim to be God. That is the one thing we must not say. A man who was merely a man and said the sort of things Jesus said would not be a great moral teacher. He would either be a lunatic — on the level with the man who says he is a poached egg — or else he would be the Devil of Hell. You must make your choice. Either this man was, and is, the Son of God, or else a madman or something worse. You can shut him up for a fool, you can spit at him and kill him as a demon or you can fall at his feet and call him Lord and God, but let us not come with any patronizing nonsense about his being a great human teacher. He has not left that open to us. He did not intend to."
— C.S. Lewis
Are you looking for me?
I am in the next seat.
My shoulder is against yours.
you will not find me in the stupas,
not in Indian shrine rooms,
nor in synagogues,
nor in cathedrals:
not in masses,
nor kirtans,
not in legs winding around your own neck,
nor in eating nothing but vegetables.
When you really look for me,
you will see me instantly —
you will find me in the tiniest house of time.
Kabir says: Student, tell me, what is God?
He is the breath inside the breath."
— Kabir
"God has no religion."
— Mahatma Gandhi
"When I stand before God at the end of my life, I would hope that I would not have a single bit of talent left, and could say, "I used everything you gave me"."
— Erma Bombeck
"I cannot choose but adhere to the word of God, which has possession of my conscience; nor can I possibly, nor will I even make any recantation, since it is neither safe nor honest to act contrary to conscience! Here I stand; I cannot do otherwise, so help me God! Amen."
— Martin Luther
"The way of Jesus cannot be imposed or mapped — it requires an active participation in following Jesus as he leads us through sometimes strange and unfamiliar terrritory, in circumstances that become clear only in the hesitations and questionings, in the pauses and reflections where we engage in prayerful conversation with one another and with him."
— Eugene H. Peterson
"When your will is God's will, you will have your will."
— Charles H. Spurgeon
"Only God is awesome."
— Shane Claiborne
"What we are is God's gift to us. What we become is our gift to God."
— Eleanor Powell
"Every day people are straying away from the church and going back to God."
— Lenny Bruce
"We're called to be faithful, to take those first difficult steps--and to leave the results up to God."
— Alex Harris
"It is impossible to rightly govern the world without God and the Bible."
— George Washington
"God has, in fact, written two books, not just one. Of course, we are all familiar with the first book he wrote, namely Scripture. But he has written a second book called creation."
— Francis Bacon
"I am unaware of his plans but I shall never stop believing in them because I cannot fathom them and I prefer to mistrust my own intellectual capacities than his justice."
— Alexis de Tocqueville
"You are a child of mine,
Born of my own design,
And you bear the hard of life.
No matter where you go,
Oh, you will always know,
That you've been made free in Christ,
And you are a child of mine! "
— Mark Schultz
"Salvation is more than a word, It is His Word. His word became flesh so we have the opportunity to live."
— Tabitha Robin
"To be a Christian means to forgive the inexcusable because God has forgiven the inexcusable in you."
— C.S. Lewis
"No woman wants to be in submission to a man who isn't in submission to God!"
— T.D. Jakes
"I gave in, and admitted that God was God."
— C.S. Lewis
"I don't try to imagine a personal God; it suffices to stand in awe at the structure of the world, insofar as it allows our inadequate senses to appreciate it."
— Albert Einstein
"I believe in God, but not as one thing, not as an old man in the sky. I believe that what people call God is something in all of us. I believe that what Jesus and Mohammed and Buddha and all the rest said was right. It's just that the translations have gone wrong."
— John Lennon
"Do not think that love in order to be genuine has to be extraordinary. What we need is to love without getting tired. Be faithful in small things because it is in them that your strength lies."
— Mother Teresa
Monday, September 27, 2010
~Happy Birthday Papi~
I thank God on your birthday because He has granted you yet another year of life. You have been the best Dad I could ever ask for. I miss you while I'm in Mexico but I'm glad I was at your celebration through webcam :) I wanted some of your ice-cream cake but oh well. Anyway I love you sooo much and I'm glad you had a good day! God bless you!
Saturday, September 25, 2010
..Amo a Dios..
Dear God,
May I never forget where you have brought me. Your love so dazzling may it always be with me. I want to forever be your loving daughter. Please forgive all of my sins and all my wrongful thoughts forgive anything that does not please you and please help me get through everyday. I love you for always and trust that you will guide my every step.
I want to share with you only a few of my favorite and inspiring bible verses.
Blessed is the man who trusts in the lord and has made the Lord his hope and confidence. Jeremiah 17:7
The Kingdom of God is within you. Luke 17:21
May I never forget where you have brought me. Your love so dazzling may it always be with me. I want to forever be your loving daughter. Please forgive all of my sins and all my wrongful thoughts forgive anything that does not please you and please help me get through everyday. I love you for always and trust that you will guide my every step.
I want to share with you only a few of my favorite and inspiring bible verses.
Blessed is the man who trusts in the lord and has made the Lord his hope and confidence. Jeremiah 17:7
The Kingdom of God is within you. Luke 17:21
I came so that you may have and enjoy life and have it in abundance until it overflows. John10:10
With men it is impossible; but to God all things are possible. Matthew 19:26 :)
God is with you in all that you do. Genesis 21:22
For God is not the author of confusion, but of peace. 1 Corinthians 14:33
Trust the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and He shall direct your paths. Proverbs 3:5-6
Watch and pray so that you will not fall into temptation. The spirit is willing, but the body is weak. Matthew 26:41
If you believe, you will recieve what ever you ask for in prayer. Matthew 21:22 :) super like!
May the Lord continually bless you with heaven's blessings as well as human joys. Psalm 128:5
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
I've Got Mine
Troubles come and goany way they want to
doin what the ought to
I've got mine
I've got mine
Some that quickly pass
others they seem to last
Hold on
Salvation comes for free
singing on the shawdows
it widens and it narrows
I've got mine
If heaven were llined with gold
heaven would be bought and sold
Hold on
People kill for love
taking it as plunder
paid in blood and thunder
I've got mine
When will turn to sand
this bell stains our hands
Hold on
Sing a song of sorrow
truth forever bending
hopeful never ending
I've got mine
Tears beyong control
try to clean my soul
Hold on
Sunday, September 5, 2010
..Happy Sunday..
Psalm 91:15-16
He will call upon me, and I will answer Him;
I will be with him in trouble,
I will deliver Him and honor Him.
With long life will I satisfy Him
and show Him my salvation.
So this weekend I attended a Christian youth gathering and boy oh boy it was amazing! Three whole days filled with praise for the Creator of the universe! It was so refreshing to see young people my age with the same faith and to see how our Lord has touched them in some special way. We had deep questions answered and time to socialize, time to cry and time to laugh and smile! My love for our Creator is stronger then ever!!!
Saturday, September 4, 2010
Friday, September 3, 2010
Insect Wings
Insect Wings
I am more soul then matter
mind more then appearance
mind more then appearance
quiet and odd.
A dreamer and non realist
the universe isn't my limit.
Earths moon is but a start.
Galaxy colors run through my head
and make up my soul.
I am the music no one's ever heard
I see with eyes that that I share with God.
My body isn't real, it does not exist,
my soul is the only real thing, and it flys free
It carries my body with insect wings,
thin and weightless around the unconscious of dreams.
Is there more to life then the beauty of dreams?
I am disconnected from society wanting no part in it.
I may appear to be jus another girl,
wearing earings and stockings,
but when you look at me agian
Notice I am a bluish tint, bald and alien like.
If I could eat trees and swollow rocks,
I would just to keep me from floating in the sky.
And then agian I don't mind
I rather live way up high
And be transparent to human eye.
Just finished another peice. Water color, and acrylic. Turned out pretty good :) I wrote the free verse before I began on the drawing. I was really inspired by the words the flowed so gently out of my head and on paper. The drawing is a self-portrait, or at least a soul portrait but of course theres more then whats just on paper. Enjoy. Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, s(he) is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come. 2 Corinthians 5:17
Sunday, August 29, 2010
..Happy Sunday..
Oh how I love Sundays. Church mornings to feed the soul and get you going for another week.
It has not been too long from the time I was extremely depressed. I had plenty of self esteem issues and felt completly helpless. I looked everywhere for peace. Researched many religons, tried substances to ease my mind, I'd cut myself, I was rebellious towards my parents, I was looking for peace in all the wrong places. Close friends never knew this because I knew how to fake being happy. It wasn't untill I started reading the bible and had talks with my aunt and cousin about the love that God has for us, that I slowly felt change in me. I've had so many experiances with God that I cannot deny or hide anymore. I want everyone to know how beautiful it is to put yourselfs in the hands of God. It's not been too long since I gave myself to Him but He has already done so much change to my insides. It's a constant love that he offers and I know there is still more to come and that I will have my dark times but I know that He is always with me and that is always enough. Thanks to God's blessings I have been reunited with my birth mom Lucy. She prayed for me so much and God heard her prayers. God always hears our prayers.
I was reading my journal and found this letter I wrote to God. I'd love to share it.
May 3, 2010
Dear God,
Your love surprises me.I have denied you many times, I have pushed you away when I needed you the most, I have said your name in vain and I still find it hard to stand up for you when others disrespect you. But Here you are, loving me, calling me, you have always been with me. Signs become clearer as I become closer to you. I must confess, however, often times I am afraid of disapointing you, but I have experienced your love. You have touched my soul many times and I have talked to you alone about all my worries and you have listened. When I meditate with you, when I read your book, your words, I find peace, I find my life guide. God I ask that you help me stay in tune with you everyday. This way I can bring more people to you, with your constant love I will change and become an example. I know you won't do all the work, I know you want me to devote more time to your word and thats what I will do. For you. I will take footsteps with you. For you. Thank you God for being here with me. For me. Because you love me and all your people.
Be strong and corageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave nor forsake you. Deuternomy 31:6
It has not been too long from the time I was extremely depressed. I had plenty of self esteem issues and felt completly helpless. I looked everywhere for peace. Researched many religons, tried substances to ease my mind, I'd cut myself, I was rebellious towards my parents, I was looking for peace in all the wrong places. Close friends never knew this because I knew how to fake being happy. It wasn't untill I started reading the bible and had talks with my aunt and cousin about the love that God has for us, that I slowly felt change in me. I've had so many experiances with God that I cannot deny or hide anymore. I want everyone to know how beautiful it is to put yourselfs in the hands of God. It's not been too long since I gave myself to Him but He has already done so much change to my insides. It's a constant love that he offers and I know there is still more to come and that I will have my dark times but I know that He is always with me and that is always enough. Thanks to God's blessings I have been reunited with my birth mom Lucy. She prayed for me so much and God heard her prayers. God always hears our prayers.
I was reading my journal and found this letter I wrote to God. I'd love to share it.May 3, 2010
Dear God,
Your love surprises me.I have denied you many times, I have pushed you away when I needed you the most, I have said your name in vain and I still find it hard to stand up for you when others disrespect you. But Here you are, loving me, calling me, you have always been with me. Signs become clearer as I become closer to you. I must confess, however, often times I am afraid of disapointing you, but I have experienced your love. You have touched my soul many times and I have talked to you alone about all my worries and you have listened. When I meditate with you, when I read your book, your words, I find peace, I find my life guide. God I ask that you help me stay in tune with you everyday. This way I can bring more people to you, with your constant love I will change and become an example. I know you won't do all the work, I know you want me to devote more time to your word and thats what I will do. For you. I will take footsteps with you. For you. Thank you God for being here with me. For me. Because you love me and all your people.
Be strong and corageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave nor forsake you. Deuternomy 31:6Saturday, August 28, 2010
Devendra Banhart Live in Mexico 2010
A dream come true :)
You will go out in joy and be led forth in peace; the mountains and hills will burst into song before you, and all the trees of the field will clap their hands.Isaiah 55:12
You will go out in joy and be led forth in peace; the mountains and hills will burst into song before you, and all the trees of the field will clap their hands.Isaiah 55:12
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